Adventures in a second pregnancy!

Was it me?
Did I do something wrong?
Am I being tested?
Must the pain last this long?

I try to be a good person.
I try to do everything right.
It’s hard to accept it.
Feels like I’m giving up the fight.

I was supposed to be strong.
I was supposed to have it all.
I feel like a failure.
Why get back up again when I’m bound to fall?

I have to keep going.
I have to keep being me.
I will always thing about what should have been,
but what was not meant to be.

I will persevere.
I will laugh and smile.
When I’m expected to run an inch,
I will take the mile.

My angel baby is watching me.
I am never alone.
I have to believe in myself
and reap the seeds that I have sown.

Be at peace my little baby.
I will always think about you and grin.
For what wasn’t meant to be
But for what should have been.